Concerns?

Now that I am moving to Memphis, I cannot say that I am not a little worried... I have made very few friends in Springfield, so at least I won't be leaving new friends. Yet, I have reconnected with some old friends from high school and while we may not be getting together every weekend it does suck to move away! I guess I just really hope I can get them to WANT to come to Memphis (I can't help but laugh a little bit ... nobody likes to come to Memphis!).

What if I can't find a job? I'm already in a ton of debt --- which I don't try to worry about too much (but it's always there in the back of my mind!). I do not, under any circumstances, want Dustin to think I am mooching off of him ... We aren't married, or engaged for that matter, so financially we are completely independent from one another, and I hope he knows I understand that! I will help pay whatever I can help pay (and I will cut down on my spending tremendously! It was a resolution anyway...).

The traffic - oh the traffic! I get annoyed enough while driving through downtown Springfield, Illinois! Right now it takes me 20-25 minutes to go about 6 miles (when I have to go through town and not around by way of interstate). From what I hear ... to go 15 miles on INTERSTATES in Memphis, it's about 40-60 minutes! AN HOUR! To go 15 miles? What am I getting myself into! Again, I laugh. I have to ... I wanted this, and I still do! So, who cares about spending a few hours each week on the interstates of Memphis? I will try not to...

MY BIGGEST CONCERN:

LEAVING AVA. I love that little girl. She's absolutely fabulous. With an infectious smile, she won me over on day one. I went to school to be "more" than a Nanny. Yet, this job is bound to end up as one that I will never forget. It has been extremely rewarding to help such a nice family - one in need. I love them LIKE family. With Lori and the things she has suffered through and overcame, I feel privileged just to know her. I hate to leave her but it's time for me to stop putting life on hold ... As wonderful as everyone is ... it's time to do more. I know I can do more.

Nursing? I hope that is in my future ... and I know that Memphis can give me that (along with great hospitals!). So that is where I am headed ... this is what keeps my mind turning everyday. I am always busy thinking ... it's what I do!